Discovery

Until you are expected to say something worthwhile on a regular basis, it is easy to think you have a lot to say....
I have been reading the Twilight series for the last couple of weeks (I'm on my third time through lest you think me a slow ready - I read the 4 books in 4 days the first run), and its given me some interesting perspective on things in my life. Mostly the usual "you only live once, make the most of it" trite nonsense, but it has also servedto remind me how much I truly love Love. Real true love that one rarely finds. I absolutely adore the feeling of first love and I was forced to take stock of my own attitude towards that leaning. In a roundabout way i have forgotten how to be open to love of all kinds, and have been gradually shutting down my emotions for the better part of a decade. The reasons are far too personal to share at this time, but for now its enough to know and correct the situation.

I rediscovered my love for music, which has been a blessing. Pandora is definitely a godsend in that department, it seems that the Music Genome Project know exactly what I  want to hear with only a very few exceptions, and introducing me to artists I might never have found. Its allowed my brain to relax and function a little better which in turn has caused me to relate to my family members a little better, which is nice. Its hard to wish everyone in your house would leave as soon as they walk in and intrude on your brain space. Its also hard to feel like your brain is in a perpetual cramp and may never feel happy again. What this may have to do with Stephanie Meyer's imaginary friends I'm not sure, but I don't feel at all uncertain that it was definitely a part of this new leaf turning action.

We shall see where all this newfound beauty and optimism will lead, I don't expect it to be easy but I am sure it will be interesting at least. To me in any case, which is the important part, right ?

C